Hello everyone. I have been a busy busy person. My legal problems are over and we officially are the parents of the twins I recently gave birth to. It has been a long journey.
I also am excited to announce I’m expecting! During this busy time, I have been baking a baby for a well deserving father via traditional surrogacy. He was adopted after his teenage mother (also adopted) died from complications with his own birth. He has no known blood relatives and wants to be a father badly.
This has been an amazing journey. I am excited to be a part of this special time. I was given given permission to share details and I will at a later time. This time pregnancy has been a unique one by far.
James has been involved and has helped my family through a lot while we were dealing with legal battles and lots of drama. My twins adore him! He’s going to be a great father. James had specific requests that are much different than we expected from working with other people.
This pregnancy has been all natural. I have had very little medical treatment and zero for the baby. One single test strip confirmed his/her existence.
It sounds odd but if you knew his history you would understand.I have not heard a heart beat. I have not seen a blurry image in a dark room. We are not even certain when the baby was conceived. A test single strip showed us when I felt a little off just before attempting another insemination. I was assuming it would take a while because I was exclusively nursing twins on demand. I had not had a period since given birth to the twins.
If its meant to be it will be. Things are very relaxed. When the baby comes, it comes. My favorite midwife has known about my pregnancy and has recently started seeing me to ensure I’m doing ok. Of course we are.
Her biggest concern is the size of my growing belly. I believe I’m pregnant with twins but have not said a word. I do not feel sets like I did the last time but I got big fast and I’m ahm what I would call freakishly pregnant. Not pregnant I’m about 115 lbs. I have not weighed myself since giving birth but I feel like I’m a blimp. Its a great feeling mixed with an okay I’m very tired and ready for this show to start.
Again I could have a month or this could be the day. I doubt it though. This pregnancy seems to cozy still. My cervix check Friday showed no sign baby soon although the babies head is firmly planted against them and the looks of my belly are sad.
Off to swim, being pregnant in the summer is awful! More updates late…
Baby is really making mom work hard to push him out while he tries to stay inside. Its hard but mommy wins!
The babies are doing great. They are nursing all the time and my breast are crazy huge feeding TWO babies! My belly is somewhat normal but needs toned up. I guess I can thank the babies healthy breast on demand for my rapid weight loss…. and my urge to plant another seed. My husband on the other hand is completely reversed impatiently waiting while he seeks options to get me pregnant again. I know we have a long road ahead of us. Of course it’s never too soon to start looking but I think these two cuties will keep me busy for a while.
I have a lot of stress right now. I’m not going to focus on the causes of the stress. It’s more so other feelings and if the family of my intended fathers is reading please know it’s not because you shared with me but more so the flood of other feelings.
I have been having contractions since Saturday night or Sunday morning. I’m certain its the real deal. When I say I’m in labor it’s because I am. I do not think I’m in labor, my body is contacting regular and hard but spaced out still.
I am beyond tired because the contractions are hard enough that I can not sleep through them because they are so intense. It’s good that I have time to relax in-between the waves.
When they roll in they build up for about 30 seconds and take me away and hold for a solid minute or so and roll back out in about 20 seconds. Contractions have maintained the space but grow longer between. When they peek it feels like anytime but then they roll back out.
Both babies are happy and moving around. Baby B seems to want to kick the contractions. Baby A seems to relax and take on head on for the team! I can feel the contractions work when they do.
I’m so glad I’m not in the hospital right now. I’d already be cut open. I have an appointment tomorrow, that I want to blow off weather I’m still pregnant or not.
My body seems to be fighting the labor. I’m ready. I’m tired. I’m huge, swollen, sore, and many other miserable things. Come on babies let do this.
At this time I’m trying to keep my water from breaking. So I’ve been walking on eggshells through a lot of the contractions and we are not checking for dilation. But I am very agar to find out. But I’m dying to get things kicked up a notch.
I just want to have these babies… *cry* come on body, bring on the painful contractions.. the ones that do not break for breaths. I’m ready for the storm to set sea and flood my body. I want to push the babies out soon.
I feel so ready but like I’m just a sliver from it.
